i'm having a bad day again. there is only one thing to do for those. eat some chocolate and post another whiny blog.

i'm getting a bit addicted to posting blogs on here. i like it, because no one i know in real life comes on here (that i know of), so i can say whatever i want about whoever i want.

i cannot stand my parents anymore. as i am trying to grow up start making more of my own decisions, it seems they are doing whatever they can to stop me. so many rules are still in place that should have been lifted a long time ago. i can't do anything without letting them know first. they listen to my phone conversations, they watch what i'm doing online. they ask me questions that aren't their business. it's like, big brother is watching. zero privacy whatsoever. i've tried talking to them. i was accused of being rude.

do you ever find that, even when everything in your life is going okay, you still find yourself in a bad mood for no obvious reason at all?

today is the last day of freedom. and i have incredibly mixed feelings. it's like there are two sides to my mind.
one side is excited for the new year, is anxious to see what happens, is hoping that it will be a good and fun year. that side of me is the side that sees school as more of a chance to see my friends, go on trips, only the fun part.

i'm going through another one of my moody phases. basically, my life sucks. or at least that's how i see it.
you might want to stop reading this right about now. i'm going to sound like a whiny emo kid and no one wants to listen to that.
here i go:
i don't have a love life. i don't have real friends. i have absolutely nothing to look forward to in the next little while. school starts in 2 weeks. i can't go to the next hedley concert because it's on a school night. enough said.

things i am going to miss about this school year:

-my locker. it was sort of the gathering spot for me and my friends this year. we spent every single lunch break sitting there talking about whatever. next year it's gonna be someone else's locker. me and my friend should've written our names or something inside it to sort of mark our place. i'm gonna miss that locker. it sounds weird but it's true.
-the messy locker across the hall. it was disgusting what people did to it but i admit it's kinda funny now. i seriously hope they clean that thing for whoever gets it next year.

so my life kinda sorta sucks right now. it seems that no one wants to listen to me. i guess i'm just that annoying. i'm a whiner. whenever i want to speak out about something it comes out all whiny and annoying and no one will listen. apparently i also need to watch the tone in my voice because i sound mad even when i'm not. even my friends are treating me like bullshit. i honestly don't know if they can call them friends anymore. if i lose them then i don't have any other friends to go to. that's how much of a loner i am. nobody likes me. everyone hates me.