I HAVENT BLOGGED HERE IN A WHILE!
so i decided to change that for today. and i have nothing better to do, so why not.

im in an oddly good mood today. like dancing-to-almost-every-Hedley-song kind of mood. i dont even know why. i guess everything in my life is just going pretty damn swell lately. and Hedley music just has that effect [affect?] on people. haha.

wow, Hedley comes to Quebec alotttttttt. they must love us/like it here. hahaha. hope they do. i know tommy likes it here. said if he had to move anywhere else, he'd move here! yay :] come live with me. please. hahaha.

well hello blog.
"i miss you, its been a long time since we've spoken last ..."
im writing this pointless blog, because like my title says, i have nothing else better to do. and im beyond bored. so yeah.

holllllllllly shit, HEDLEY TOMORROW.
words cannot explain how ecstatic i am. really.
i just cant wait to see the guys again.
im prayinggggggggggggggg that we meet them again.
i hope they'll be walking around, just like they do at the Calgary Stampede.

i created an account on blogspot, where Jake writes.
i'm writing on there from now on. more private, and i can talk about whatever i want there.
and no one will find it. except for Jay :] i trust her 110%.
i'll post on here from time to time, but not about my feelings or issues im having, etc.
maybe just about how my day's been or things im excited about. which will mostly include Hedley. haha.

wow some people on the forum are so fucking annoying.
so many fake fans. infesting our home. blech.

anyway, to end it.
HAPPY FUCKING BIRFDAY DAVEY :] ah i love you so much.

so today i finally went and laminate my pictures of me & Hedley. oh they are gonna be just beautiful. sucky part = they'll only be ready in 10 days. and im very impatient. that empty space on my wall is just waiting to be filled. ah, but when my ENTIRE room is done, THEN i could really call it my fortress of solitude. (too much Smallville hahaha :])

you know what i fucking cant stand? when i turn to a channel and a Hedley music video is playing, but its the end of it. I SAW FUCKING STREET FIGHT WHICH I HAVENT SEEN IN LIKE 98745987654 YEARS ON TV, AND I ONLY CAUGHT THE END OF IT.

jay was right, you are a fucking whorebag
ahahaha wow you're so lame its actually quite hilarious.
"that's the thing with you plastics, you think everybody is in love with you, when in reality, EVERYBODY HATES YOU."
there's the definition i was looking for.
you're ego was milked so much that night, that you are now overflowing with narcissism. over one little comment. ahahahahaha. you're pathetic and my fist craves your face. he made fun of you behind your back anyway. "just sayin"

anyway, enough of that.
today was suuuuuuuuuper fun at Jay's! :D

i just finished watching some videos from the concerts i went to. and now im listening to Old School. and im crying while typing this. i miss them even more than i did before. my heart is sinking so deep, i dont even feel it beating anymore.
and on August 9th, im super nervous, cause its a festival and there's gonna be a lottttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt of people. i'll probably come home with bruises. unless.. well, i wont say it cause it could ruin our chances for something.

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall,
Make it through it all

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you

You're the only one
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
you bring me back again
Back under the stars,
Back into your arms

well, there are too many blogs that have the same topic. which is birthday wishes to Jake. so i'll just say something brief:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAKE! i love you oh so much. i hope you have an amazing day, you definitley deserve it. thank you for being the highlight of my life.

on this day, last week, was the first time i ever met Hedley. well, Jake. and Tom. (i had already met Dave & Chris.)
"im dying to live" that day again. fuck.

and i was watching my videos from the Brossard show. oh man. it kills me. it makes me so fucking sad. i would do anything to stay at a Hedley concert forever. imagine an endless Hedley concert? holy shit. it would just go on and on and on and on. now that is paradise.

49/50 days of counting down to the Hedley concerts.
and it's already all over. that went by so quickly. too quickly. i loved having something to look forward to. something to be excited about. i started missing them as soon as they walked off stage. and even more when i walked away from the signing table.
now when i listen to them, i cry. not tears of happiness. tears of sorrow because i miss them so much, it hurts. Hedley concerts keep me grounded. but i should be happy. for all the memories i have now.